I'd rather dance with you than talk with you..

It's weird to feel so busy yet not able to say exactly what it is I'm doing. All I know is I don't have time for that.
I'm getting so excited for these months to pass. This year has so much packed into it! I just want to get my party on! x5!!

Things to look forward to:
-wittle nail to grow out
-swollen ankle to go away
-spiders to get out of the house
-autumn! Boots & skirts!
-adventure

The light the heat, your eyes

This day was pretty terrible. I don't think there is any way it could have been worse. I never think this at work, or at least don't say it out loud but today I did, "oh man, we're fucked."

And then it happened, I had an altercation with the janitors. I didn't think that was possible. I had to have them leave the building. I ordered people to get the fuck out. Where have these balls been all my life and why the fuck did I need to pull them out with the janitor.

Because of what happened I'm glad I was still in the building. But I really didn't need it tonight. So glad the neighbors are being not retarded because that would have been the last straw.

Why can't I feel anything?

Whoa, weekend was weird. There were times where I felt like I was in 3rd grade. That was embarrassing. I felt so judgey and stupid all at the same time. There was even a moment where I felt dizzy but that was on purpose. The comment,"thanks for getting me dizzy", wasn't and then I felt stupid again.

I thought a lot over the weekend. After all the creepy dudes hit on me(pointing guy being my personal favorite) in the bars I thought, What is wrong with me? But then today my boss said something that might be the answer, "you're the weirdest of them all."

Maybe weirdos flock to me bc I'm their queen. Haha oh fuck, I'm fucked.

Ps Seattle kinda sucks. Its like Sacramento and San Diego's baby.

Get in line and settle down.

Being an adult is dumb. I'm not healthier or happier. The last time I had this many doctor's appointments was when I was a baby. Happiness is second to the nervious/scared feelings. I don't want to do all this alone. I wish there was someone here that would do stuff with me. Like my mom or a friend. I don't have a friend here that I can just call whenever or ask to do me a favor.

I think all I really want is a hug. Too bad I only give hugs out to like 5 people. Count down to the next time I see one of those people.

Or maybe all I needed was to vent. Now all will be well.

yes I am falling and she keeps calling me back again

OLYMPIC TRIALS! After someone wins an entrance to the olympics they say something about a message to London. My message to London is my middle finger and me shouting, "FUCK OFF LONDON!" I'm just a little excited about the olympics.

I'm house sitting for my co-worker's sister. Its in the couve. Its just across the river but still weird. Coffee was way too hard to find today. Lame.

Work has been just a little stressful. But hopefully once our new hires start all will be better. I know I'm still learning but I just want to get it already and run. A couple more years and I'll be running/jumping or whatever else I want to do.

Lots of stuff happening this year and I can't wait. So many adventures: Hollister, Vegas, Long Beach and house sitting! Hopefully my condition won't get in the way of me having fun. After this month I will hopefully be back on my alcohol and gluten diet. heh

Ok back to my olympic trials. USA USA!!!

I'm like hot chick that you can't even touch

How do I know I'm old?
-my doctor told me I can't eat after 6:30
-I don't stay out late
-I don't drink
-I ask for the ingredients of my meal
-I use the calendar on my phone
-the first thing I do when I wake up is take meds
-my happiest times are when I'm eating

life just turned boring.

You've got to live and learn

If you ever need proof that you've changed, watch a movie that you enjoyed in high school. Mind blowing experience.
In other news I've been put in prison by the doctor. No fun food or drinks for a month and I also went from being borderline anemic to full on. What does this mean? I'm going to be a huge bitch for a whole month. Woooo!